Dip and Tell

Last nite, I did two (2) preggy tests and both showed positive results..refer to Picture One above.

There were mixed feelings at first since this is my third pregnancy and I have encountered two (2) miscarriages for this year alone.. I really2 hope my baby survives this time.

This morning, I went to Klinik Kita to confirm my pregnancy. I went there alone,an hour skip from my mountainous office work.

Later, the doctor referred me to Hospital Pantai and long story short, I ended up at Prince Court Hospital instead he he..

So here I am now, lying on the hospital bed (RIB= Rest in Bed) while typing this out.. huhu FYI, this hospital is amazing.. simply AMAZING..

Nway, thanks to Ika for bringing me a telekung, I forgot mine at home. Thanks for those comforting words too, Ika.. =)

I really hope my baby survives.. ameen.. Plis pray for me..

*zzz..*

time to change...

Have you ever cried yourself way way further until no sound came out of it?

Have you ever cried until you ran out of tears?

Have you ever cried until there's no more snot in your nose?


I cried like that just now.. it really hurt me when someone you loved ignore the truth about herself..

Is it impossible to change a person?

it's time to revamp our taxi system...

AFP - Thursday, September 18

KUALA LUMPUR (AFP) - - The ads promoting "Malaysia: Truly Asia" aim to welcome visitors with a warm smile to a prosperous and modern nation, so the taxi fleet branded "the worst in the world" can come as a bit of a shock.

Even the locals are not spared the shabby service of unkempt and hostile drivers behind the wheels of decrepit vehicles who refuse to use the meter, overcharge and pick-and-choose which destinations they will travel to.

At the popular KLCC mall under Kuala Lumpur's iconic Petronas Twin Towers is a typical scene, as a gang of cabbies negotiate with a young Norwegian couple just metres from a signboard warning against "taxi touts".

"Flat rate, flat rate, no metre," one driver insists as the tourists try to find a cab to take them to their hotel, less than two kilometres (1.2 miles) away.

Anxious to escape the baking heat, they agree to pay 25 ringgit (7.22 dollars) for a trip that would have cost less than three ringgit on the meter.

"Is it expensive? We don't know, we thought it is normal here," said the woman as they piled in with their shopping bags.

More frequent visitors, however, are vocal in their criticism and say that aggressive and unprofessional drivers are tarnishing the nation's image as a squeaky clean and hospitable destination.

"I first visited Malaysia in 2006 and I was impressed by everything I saw except for the worst taxi service I have endured," said Kabir Dali, an Indian tourist waiting in vain for a metered taxi at another mall.

"I paid a whopping 260 ringgit (74 dollars) from the Kuala Lumpur International Airport to town and was later told that was twice the proper amount."

Complaints about taxis are common in many countries, but in Malaysia it has escalated to an outpouring of frustration, on blog sites and in letters to newspapers.

In a survey by the local magazine The Expat, some 200 foreigners from 30 countries rated Malaysia the worst among 23 countries in terms of taxi quality, courtesy, availability and expertise.

The respondents lashed the fleet as "a source of national shame" and "a serious threat to tourists -- rude bullies and extortionists".

Salvation is in sight though, as a number of smaller, up-scale operators enter the market to provide a more expensive but quality taxi service for frustrated visitors and locals.

The uniformed drivers, behind the wheels of smart new multi-purpose vehicles and sedans, switch on the meter as a matter of course and do not refuse destinations -- surprising and delighting commuters in the capital.

Abdul Razak, operations manager for Dubai-based Citicab which launched here in January, said that even in poorer nations such as Thailand and Indonesia, taxis are smarter and the drivers far more courteous.

"I would say it is the worst in this region, undoubtedly. I have travelled to all countries in this region and our company operates taxis in many parts of the world. The situation here is the worst I have seen," he told AFP.

"The vehicles are in shabby condition, the driver will take you if he likes your face -- that is, if he agrees with where you want to go for the price he insists on."

The government has called on taxi firms to lift their standards, but various campaigns have achieved little, and many blame the lack of enforcement on rampant corruption in the police and bureaucracy.

"It is difficult for the roads and traffic department to take stern action," said a security officer at one city mall as he watched the touts swoop.

"Taxi operators and the company which hold the licences are all linked to some politician or another," he said. "Drivers here are ruthless because they are unchecked by authorities who are almost non-existent."

John Koldowski, from the Pacific Asia Travel Association, said that "less than desirable" taxi drivers have an outsize impact on a nation's image.

"The first contact a tourist gets with locals is often during airport transits to hotels and it creates a very, very strong first impression, either be good or bad," he said.

"Authorities certainly need to do their jobs and act upon any complaints strongly, quickly and visibly."

i hate cabbies especially in KLCC area.. they were rude and asked ridiculous pay for poor services!!   

Mr. Authority, please do something... Mr. Politician, where's your concern over this issue? this was not the first time we've been labeled like this.. shame on you twice!!

Rocket by Yuna

Got this lyric from Rocket by Yunalis (Benda Aneh).. thanks!

You're like a rocket in my mind
That's waiting to define everything about me no one knew
And you stick like a poster on my wall
As if you dont wanna move

I got no money in my pocket
Nobody to rock with but you
But you know me I don't seem to roll
Somehow we managed to get through

People come and people go
And people gonna come some more
They pick a fight
But it's alright
At least I get to see you tonight
Tonight

I can't believe we almost got famous for nothing baby
You came the last minute of --- to save me
I can't believe we almost got paid for nothing baby
Cause even if they go away
I got the feeling that you're gonna stay

It's like I'm picking up a miracle off the sidewalk
Like kitten in the box
Don't contemplate yourself, you say
Cause you're all you've got
I'm a --- and pathetic
At the same time unlike you
Baby you've got no move
And you think I'm good at what I do

People come and people go
And people gonna come some more
They pick a fight
But it's alright
At least I have you home tonight
Tonight

I can't believe we almost got famous for nothing baby
You came the last minute of --- to save me
I can't believe we almost got paid for nothing baby
Cause even if they go away
I got the feeling that you're gonna stay

You're like a rocket in my mind
Waiting to define everything about me
You're like a poster on my wall
Sticking, don't wanna fall
As if you dont wanna move

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I just heard this song recently and I really fell 'menongeng' with this song.. sounds like we have our own Norah Jones.. (norah jones in the town..!!) 

Search for the mp3 over the weekend and finally I've got few of her songs from Amini.net. (i promised I won't distribute it to others..lol) 

I also enjoy this two songs-Dan Sebenarnya and Deeper Conversation.. Dan Sebenarnya really reminds me to this one group.. arghh i can't recall the group name plak..adus.. previously, I didn't know the song title for Dan Sebenarnya.. I keep referring it as Oh Bulan song.. hehe

You go Yuna..! Should I go this 12 Oct? Yes definitely.. =)

it's time to let it go..

Ini Botet.. Kucing Jantan. Bengal breed kot.. ikut kata buku, tgk kat kedai buku MPH..  

Adik saya, E-kin yg amik dia masa dia kecik2 dulu.. ingat lagi msa first tgk Botet lam bakul motor ayah. Comel sgt2..muka blur.. macam bebola bulu huhu..  

Masa kecik2 dia tinggal lam bilik air.. nak ajar dia discplin ttinggal ng manusia.. huhu Dulu kitaorg ingat dia bisu, sbb dia tak penah bising mitak ape2.. lambat bg makan pun , dia cool je hehe.. dia tak pandai panjat pokok cam kucing biasa.. dia takleh panjat garage umah.. dia sgt peramah.. klu kucing jantan lain datang umah, dia siap leh tegur lagi..patut kejar kucing tu hehe..  

Botet sgt pembersih.. dia manja sgt2.. bulu dia lebat n tak pernah tgk kesan kotor ng dia.. dia tade bau langsung.. kitaorg pun jarang mandikan dia.. takut dia demam.. klu dia demam, dia pandai je carik herba/rumput, buat ubat tuk sakit dia hehe.. 

Kitaorg slaluu wonder kat mana Botet nyer toilet.. sbb tak pernah nmpk dia ehem2 =p Botet masa remaja mmg sgt2 manja.. Masa dia jadik ayah, dia jadik ayah yg baik kat Mimi (anak sulong Botet).. Mimi serupa ng Botet.. yelah, anak sulong mestilah ikut rupa ayah hehe..  

Pas Botet kawen ng Putih, dia tak bisu dah.. dia dah pandai fight ng kucing luar.. hehe  

Tapi semua tu tinggal memori je.. Botet dah takde dah.. Dia kena serang ng anjing liar awal thn ni.. sbb anjing tu nak masuk territory dia n kacau anak bini dia.. Botet pergi as a hero..  

Rindu sgt2 kat Botet.. Sy still boleh kluarkan air mata setiap kali teringatkan kat dia..Tade kucing lain boleh ganti Botet.. =( Botet mmg part of our family.. mmg dah jangka dia pegi dulu, sbb kucing jangka hayat dia tak lama kan.. tp still rindu sgt2 kat dia.. dia mmg kucing yg tak pernah mendatang masalah... sentiasa buat kami sekeluarga happy tgk telatah dia..  

Masa tahu dia takde, satu family cam takleh terima berita tu.. sbb semua org mmg syg sgt2 kat Botet.. Tp Tuhan lg sygkan Botet..redha je la..  

To Botet, we miss you very2 much..  

Botet (FEB 2005-FEB 2008)

it's time to go..

There he goes again..

Husband went back to HisLand just now.I shed my tears easily every time we have to say goodbye. I hate Sunday.How long do we have to to do this? I have no answer to that Q yet.. ( I wish I have..)

Last few weeks, one on my colleague decided to leave the company and move to Australia. He secured himself with a better offers there etc2..

Anyway, he asked me "What's your plan? Are you moving there? You should. HisLand got lot of opportunities what?" bla bla bla..

I simply said " I don't know yet..Maybe I'll move there..or he'll move to KL" I don't have the exact answer to this kindda question. There would be several options but it's really depends on several factors.

I wish to skip this part of my life and fast forward to "Husband and me living together in slow mode" part. The clock is ticking.. second by second as I typed all this words.. moving way too fast. .

I wish Husband is here with me now, comforting me in his hug.

I hate Sunday.

it's time to reveal the truth

During my high school (musical) year, every time I asked people to guess what i weighed, most of them will definitely gave me way too far figures and it was usually lesser than my real weight. And when I revealed the truth, they will said "oo.. tulang ko besor kot ( you might have big bones ), ko tinggi la ( you are tall?) , tak nampak ko gemuk pun ( you doesn't not looked that fat!!)", etc2..

I've always been in the " big but not fat (BBNT)" group. You dun looked fat, since you've height and it balanced your look well, bla bla. I weighed almost 55+kg when i was in FORM FIVE but I still looked ok.. tak percaya? Hear this...I showed Husband a photo of mine (with a bunch of girl) taken during my high school graduation ceremony, and he could not figured out which one is ME.. hehe..

But I truly gained weight when I was studying in UTP. Back then, I started to slowly developed my appetites when I hanged out with one of my girlfriends and we always 'tapau (take away)' our lunch and dinner from 'kopetro cafe' together. She used to double her chicken wings, drumstick, ikan, chicken burger, banjo.. etc2.. and she maintained in her size hehe .She influenced me lots hehe I really loved to eat during that time.. Nasi hujan panas, mee jawa, roti canai pakcik Ali, ikan keli masak cili, etc2.. I ended up with 78kg. period.

(After 4 years of studying, I became closer with my now Husband, and I managed to lost about 10-15 kgs, fluctuating until my first working year...then... here come another story about my long weary struggle with my weight...;p)

It's time to scale down

Today I’ve decided to change my life. Yes, I want to change my life. I want to have a better life and a better health.

Husband said that I must decide to change first and the rest will follow. I guess that was a crucial part of the whole thing.

I want to get rid those negative feelings which been bugging me for almost a year. I want to loose some extra kgs that I’ve been carrying around with me lately. I know it suppositiously sounded but I will give it a try anyway.

I want to be a better ME. I believed I have to start with my weight loss program. huhu..

Get back into my normal size! I really want to fit into my office wear back ( I miss them so much!). I’m tired of wearing the same cloth for every week. Badly need a wardrobe makeover but I just have to stop buying new cloths and start using my old ones. And to be able to do that, I really need to lose some weight.

You'll get back your health once your BMI is right on track rite? ;)

I'm doing this for my Husband (lil confession..) Husband never made any bad complaints about me, about my size.(for time being...=p)

Thank you for your patience dear. Get ready for the new ME. =p

it's time to talk about 'What about S*****k?'

I started to blog on early 2004. 

During my golden time in Uni. Not much to talk/type back then.. just some 'poyo' stuffs.. eventho poyo, i keep my nose on running it well and maintain it until i decided to stop sometimes in 2006. Here I am now, deleting all those posts and decided to start fresh again.. =)

I've deleted all my posts from 2004 until 2006.  But I'm keeping one post as a draft. Today I decided to talk about this post. it relates to my past and future..and i've tasted my own med..huhu

Published on 30th Aug 2004..

Just now, I surfed construction company based in S*****k. May be I'll end up having my internship there huhu. Will my parent allow me to go there? I think they will allow me but how about he? Will he allow me going there alone? Going to place where there's no H/p coverage, no huha huha thingy, shoppes closed at 9 pm bla2.. I think I should asked myself what I really want, rite? I always wanted to go to somewhere I could easily ride my life with. Slow flow, not hectic at all, not so urban but not too rural place. K**** will be a nice place, i think, i think.. keep on dreaming girl ! ( dun forgot to wake up :p)

I've wrote this before my internship. Berangan to stay away from home and Husband (my bf back then) so all of them will miss me more and more. hehe Yep, it's childish and unmatured of me.. but that was few years back.. 

It's so true that God will always granted your wish/es.. it's just a matter of time.. lambat or cepat.. For my case, going to S****k (it's not in my wishlist, but it happened anyway) and being away from family seems like a cool business..(I dun know what am I thinking back then.. ) you're on your own foot, in a strange land, with mixed cultures, and a nice flow work schedule, it seems like a a good bargain to me..

But it was vice versa.. I cud not adapt myself with the environment neither the work schedule. It was too hectic to handle and everyday was full with frustration over works.. tonnes of work.. it's killing me.. at least, if my family and Husband were there to support me, I won't be that crazy kot.. the distance, the loneliness, the boss mixed with my complex thoughts really made me makan ati everyday.. I was wrong.. it was totally different from what i've expected..

Husband always reminds me that "the other side will not be as greener as we think.." I thought by going to there, the future will served me better, but i was wrong, I cud not take the job, the environment, etc no more and I'm deeply sinking instead of swimming over the whole thing..I've learned that you must be thankful for everything you've got now and never to compare yourself with anybody else. Never asked for things to be easier, but you yourself has to be better.. Never ask God why like this, why  like that, stop all your complaints and start to live your life..

Im really glad that period was over (i kept praying everyday to come back to base..)

Alhamdulilah.. it was a nightmare.. and it's over now.. you can wake up now dear.. =)